Friday, January 22, 2010

A year ago...

At this time of the day, one year ago, I had NO clue my life would change drastically in less than 12 hours. I had no idea that my son would die within 36 hours, and I had no idea that my faith would be shaken like it has never been before. At this time, a year ago, I didnt know I would have to learn to live without my baby boy, that I would spend hours (probably adding up to days) tossing and turning, unable to sleep because my heart hurt so bad, I didnt know that I would spend hours asking God WHY US??

We have no promise of tomorrow, live your life, like today is the last day of it. Love hard, hold tight, and worship your maker with all you are.

God Bless you all!!

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

so it has been nearly a year...

yes in ten days it will have been a year since our John went to heaven..well actually nine days since the "incident" and then he passed away within twenty four hours. How our lives have changed. Dave is in school now, halfway finished actually. Jarrod and I are still at home, homeschooling, but we are different. Truly I cannot say I have ever experienced sadness before this, I might have thought I was sad, but this is a physical ache, a pain that starts at your throat and moves into your chest and then the pit of your stomach. No one should ever have to bury a child, ever.
For my friends who know me well, this wont seem as odd (because you already know I have a squirrely brain LOL) Last night I was laying in bed, thinking about this past year, and I though what if I wake up in January 24th, and find this was all a dream, a year long dream, what if my John was in his bed snoozing away, how happy I would be to see him. I do realize that is not going to happen, so no need to call the guys with the strait jacket. But there are times when it has seemed like a nightmarish life, that I would wish I could just wake up.

When you say yours prayers include a prayer for our family...
God Bless You !!

Tuesday, January 12, 2010

lots of things going on in blogland...

book reviews are going up fairly frequently over at my book review blog   Some wonderful new books have been arriving and I cannot wait to read them and share my reviews with you all.

Also over at Cindy's Tips and Hints we are gearing up for a celebration!!!  It is my five year blog-a-versary there I have been blogging for 5 years there..on Thursday January 14th...I have a surprise going to be going on over there...a please check in over there.

I havent done much stamping of late, I did make a thank you card, but forgot to take a picture of it.  I got a couple of stamps in my stocking for Christmas so I had to try them out..

Hope all is well with you, my dear blog friends!!